Loneliness...Hmmm....
Loneliness:
I lie awake
For no one's sake
I could not sleep
As my thought ran deep
I asked myself why
As I started to cry
That my luck was rotten
And I was forgotten
But the sobbing stopped
As up a thought cropped
That I need not fear
As Loneliness was here....
Loneliness II : Never Alone
The Quiet reigned through empty space
Engulfing all in a sweeping grace
But I stood still
Letting the emptiness fill
My aching body yearns
For thru Life I have learnt
That nothing is what they seem
My carefully tailored heart torn at the seams
And there was nothing left for me
For the end was all I could see
Suddenly I was bathed in light
Somehow in response to mt plight
An angel descended from the sky
Urging me to come to her and fly
With trembling fingers, I touched her hand
And soon we started to ascend
Away from all the misery and gloom
which had spelt my certain doom
I turned and admired her beauty
She turned and gave me a smile so pretty
But as suddenly as she had appeared
She left me and had disappeared
And I was back in reality
My neighbourhood surrounding me
I was finally home
A day as bright as chrome
I whispered to myself in an assured tone
That I will be.... Never Alone....
i wld love to have said tht the poetry was by me...unfortunately such beautiful creations are beyond my capacity...laughs...this poem was written by someone who inspired me to get in touch with my passion for writing once again... i was impressed beyond words when i read thru his blog... it was simply inspiring... thanks prakash...=)
i'd also like to extend my apologies if i came across as unfriendly towards u last year...(in particular sorry for not smiling at u when we were handing in the essays at AS3 last yr...i was not feeling well tht day...=P)
now for my own thoughts abt the topic on loneliness...have you ever walked along a place simply bursting with life(take orchard road for example....always filled with pple frm all walks of life, conversations and laughter aplenty) when a strange sensation of emptiness washes over u all of a sudden... i liken it to feeling cold all over despite the sun shining mercilessly upon u... i've experienced such emotions far too often where i question the meaning of my life... more specifically i question whether i'm of meaning to anyone else's life...when such a question arises in my mind the only thing that gives me a peace of mind is that i can rest assured i mean the world to my mom,dad and brother... However, the inevitable fact tht my parents are not going to be around forever alarms me from time to time... cos all my life they're the pple who've understood me the best and have been there for me regardless of the immensity of my problems....the countless sacrifices they've made while raising me has never failed to amaze me...furthermore the bond i share with them ,especially my mum who's not only just a mother for me but also my best fren,confident and mentor, can't be described in words...i'm the luckiest gal in the world to have such wonderful parents! =) as in the case of my brother i know there will come a time when he has to break away and find his own direction and path in his life...although i'll always be there to support him through his endearvours i'm aware that i must not be overly dependent over his prescence in my life...
moving on from from family i turn my attention to friends...i'm truly blessed to have a few friends in my life who realli mean the world to me... lakshmi,vim,viki,...u guys mean alot to me yeah...;) unfortunately i just don't get the opportunity to meet up with u guys as much as i'd love to... not forgetting the new frens in my life whom i'm getting to know and whom i treasure alot as well...sheetal,ashwini,naz, archana,akshata,puvan...thank you so much as well! u guys never fail to make my day!=)i sometimes wonder if with time the much cherished friendships in my life will fade away as each person becomes preoccupied with his/her own career or with their respective families after marriage... it's a scary thought but a reality tht i've seen take place in the lives of many i know...sigh! it's a realli depressing thot...
it's times like this when my mind runs over all these thots that loneliness engulfs me.... i'm just overwhelmed with images of me all alone in the future...especially as each day goes by and i'm starting to lose faith in the possibility of ever finding that special someone with whom i hope to share my life with... perhaps that's why i put so much effort into my studies... cos i see a great need to achieve my dreams of being a psychologist come counsellor.... in the event that i do end up alone i can at least put my heart and soul into my job where i get to meet and touch the lives of many...
ok i tink this is getting to too dreary.... coming to a more light-hearted aspect of loneliness...i would like to proclaim that the worst day of each year is V-DAY! hahahaha.... cos every year i just end up spending the day all alone... with the exception of this year when i celebrated with my frens...hallelujah!=) do u know what's the worst thing bout the day? the fact that no one gives me flowers! laughs...every yr i hope tht at least some kind soul will give me a rose or smt and make my v-day a special one...but it NEVER happens...hee hee... this yr i even had thots of buying myself flowers...but i thot it'd be simply pathetic...i haven't reached such a sad stage yet...do not worry! hee hee... i envy gals who get bouquets of flowers and stuff frm their significant others on v-day...and i know it sounds incredibly childish( hey i'm still a child at heart-age is but only a no.!) but i can't stop wishing my prince charming will hurry up and arive... seriously dunno who tht is but the day i discover his identity the first thing i'm gonna do is give him one tight slap for taking his own sweet time in making his prescence felt in my life....hahahahahhahaha....as u can see i'll make a "great" gf! =P
ok with tht light hearted conclusion i'm feeling less alone and more alive...haha...can't ur'll already sense the eccentricity rising in me...so till new thots come to my mind( which won't be long---my mind's workin 24/7 non-stop haha) i shall take a break from writing and enjoy other aspects of life...such as WATCHING TV! Hurrah! haha...adious amigos! =)
I lie awake
For no one's sake
I could not sleep
As my thought ran deep
I asked myself why
As I started to cry
That my luck was rotten
And I was forgotten
But the sobbing stopped
As up a thought cropped
That I need not fear
As Loneliness was here....
Loneliness II : Never Alone
The Quiet reigned through empty space
Engulfing all in a sweeping grace
But I stood still
Letting the emptiness fill
My aching body yearns
For thru Life I have learnt
That nothing is what they seem
My carefully tailored heart torn at the seams
And there was nothing left for me
For the end was all I could see
Suddenly I was bathed in light
Somehow in response to mt plight
An angel descended from the sky
Urging me to come to her and fly
With trembling fingers, I touched her hand
And soon we started to ascend
Away from all the misery and gloom
which had spelt my certain doom
I turned and admired her beauty
She turned and gave me a smile so pretty
But as suddenly as she had appeared
She left me and had disappeared
And I was back in reality
My neighbourhood surrounding me
I was finally home
A day as bright as chrome
I whispered to myself in an assured tone
That I will be.... Never Alone....
i wld love to have said tht the poetry was by me...unfortunately such beautiful creations are beyond my capacity...laughs...this poem was written by someone who inspired me to get in touch with my passion for writing once again... i was impressed beyond words when i read thru his blog... it was simply inspiring... thanks prakash...=)
i'd also like to extend my apologies if i came across as unfriendly towards u last year...(in particular sorry for not smiling at u when we were handing in the essays at AS3 last yr...i was not feeling well tht day...=P)
now for my own thoughts abt the topic on loneliness...have you ever walked along a place simply bursting with life(take orchard road for example....always filled with pple frm all walks of life, conversations and laughter aplenty) when a strange sensation of emptiness washes over u all of a sudden... i liken it to feeling cold all over despite the sun shining mercilessly upon u... i've experienced such emotions far too often where i question the meaning of my life... more specifically i question whether i'm of meaning to anyone else's life...when such a question arises in my mind the only thing that gives me a peace of mind is that i can rest assured i mean the world to my mom,dad and brother... However, the inevitable fact tht my parents are not going to be around forever alarms me from time to time... cos all my life they're the pple who've understood me the best and have been there for me regardless of the immensity of my problems....the countless sacrifices they've made while raising me has never failed to amaze me...furthermore the bond i share with them ,especially my mum who's not only just a mother for me but also my best fren,confident and mentor, can't be described in words...i'm the luckiest gal in the world to have such wonderful parents! =) as in the case of my brother i know there will come a time when he has to break away and find his own direction and path in his life...although i'll always be there to support him through his endearvours i'm aware that i must not be overly dependent over his prescence in my life...
moving on from from family i turn my attention to friends...i'm truly blessed to have a few friends in my life who realli mean the world to me... lakshmi,vim,viki,...u guys mean alot to me yeah...;) unfortunately i just don't get the opportunity to meet up with u guys as much as i'd love to... not forgetting the new frens in my life whom i'm getting to know and whom i treasure alot as well...sheetal,ashwini,naz, archana,akshata,puvan...thank you so much as well! u guys never fail to make my day!=)i sometimes wonder if with time the much cherished friendships in my life will fade away as each person becomes preoccupied with his/her own career or with their respective families after marriage... it's a scary thought but a reality tht i've seen take place in the lives of many i know...sigh! it's a realli depressing thot...
it's times like this when my mind runs over all these thots that loneliness engulfs me.... i'm just overwhelmed with images of me all alone in the future...especially as each day goes by and i'm starting to lose faith in the possibility of ever finding that special someone with whom i hope to share my life with... perhaps that's why i put so much effort into my studies... cos i see a great need to achieve my dreams of being a psychologist come counsellor.... in the event that i do end up alone i can at least put my heart and soul into my job where i get to meet and touch the lives of many...
ok i tink this is getting to too dreary.... coming to a more light-hearted aspect of loneliness...i would like to proclaim that the worst day of each year is V-DAY! hahahaha.... cos every year i just end up spending the day all alone... with the exception of this year when i celebrated with my frens...hallelujah!=) do u know what's the worst thing bout the day? the fact that no one gives me flowers! laughs...every yr i hope tht at least some kind soul will give me a rose or smt and make my v-day a special one...but it NEVER happens...hee hee... this yr i even had thots of buying myself flowers...but i thot it'd be simply pathetic...i haven't reached such a sad stage yet...do not worry! hee hee... i envy gals who get bouquets of flowers and stuff frm their significant others on v-day...and i know it sounds incredibly childish( hey i'm still a child at heart-age is but only a no.!) but i can't stop wishing my prince charming will hurry up and arive... seriously dunno who tht is but the day i discover his identity the first thing i'm gonna do is give him one tight slap for taking his own sweet time in making his prescence felt in my life....hahahahahhahaha....as u can see i'll make a "great" gf! =P
ok with tht light hearted conclusion i'm feeling less alone and more alive...haha...can't ur'll already sense the eccentricity rising in me...so till new thots come to my mind( which won't be long---my mind's workin 24/7 non-stop haha) i shall take a break from writing and enjoy other aspects of life...such as WATCHING TV! Hurrah! haha...adious amigos! =)
posted by silent wonderer at 4:00 PM
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