Monday, December 12, 2005

Dilemma

a travellor sets out on a journey tht proves to be long and perilous...instead of arriving at his destination he chances onto a crossroad... 2 different paths holding promises of a better tmr and a brighter future...the choice over which path to thread upon will determine whether he reaches the destination he so desires or if he has to make do with whatever else life has to offer...now here's the catch unlike ordinary crossroads which have signposts to help one in making a decision, this crossroads have none...how is the travellor supposed to make a decision then?

haven't each one of us been in this all too familliar situ b4...a pt in life where we're torn between choosing 2 alternatives not knowing how both choices will eventually affect our life...yet e decision is ours to make and the consequences ours to bear...life is unfair at times and we just have to accept this harsh reality..cos if we fail to do so we'll forever be living in a land of dreams...a life where everything we've hoped for seems to slip away frm our grip and each day of our existence turns into a tiresome and meaningless affair...i realise control is just an illusion...there's only this much we have say over...more often than not an invisible force in the form of our external environment has much control over the decisions we make in life and the paths we choose to thread upon...

humans are social animals...we just dun live our lives in solitude...we live it with others...and at times when the people u love so much expect u to thread upon a path cos they believe it's the best for u we just take the plunge and heed their advice...there are some who believe their lives are theirs to live and whatever decisions they make will be solely based on what they want...but others like myself, we just can't bring ourselves to do that...we'd never want to place our loved ones in a posiiton where they're stressed,worried or unhappy...even if it means we'd have to sacrifice what we truly desire...cos just as they want the best for us we want the best for them...and a life of sacrifice is betta than a life pursuing selfish goals in my opinion...how is one supposed to live in peace when everything around him/her is in chaos and discord...perhaps some can in an attempt to be true to themselves..and these people i truly admire...

a common saying goes like this...Time Heals All Wounds...unfortunately time doesn't cause the memories u hold dear to fade away...it's etched in ur soul and will always remind u of things that could have been...events that could have taken a different turn...no one knows what the future holds...and life is too short to ponder over could-have-beens or to mull over regrets...i guess at times the best thing to do is make the best of what u have and treasure those arnd u as long as they're there...the only thing that we can be certain of in our life is uncertainty...ironical but tht's the way things are...there's nothing permanent in life not even life itself...and as such, being mere mortals we've to learn to live each day to the fullest,treasure moments gone by and make sweet new memories along the way...

the travellor stands at the crossroads...time is pressing upon him to make a decision...he can choose with his heart or he can choose with his mind based on what others feel would be a best course of action in his position...he spends sleepless nights and torturous days wondering over what he's gonna do...till a pt where he feels he's on the verge of a complete breakdown...just inches away frm losing his mind...his mind silences his heart as he realises he'd never want to disappoint his loved ones or to shatter the hope and faith they've placed on him...he sets down on the "chosen" path not knowing whether it's truly the "best" as what those arnd him make it to be...all he knows tht come what may he'd have to face it...e decision may be made taking others into account but the consequences and the battles to silence the voice of his heart is only his...will he reach his destination, will his thirst be quenched, will his heart be silenced? only time will tell... cos only time holds the key to all answers...